Broken Smiles

Tonight, Tonight,

2012-01-12T17:18:00.000-08:00

Well, the world rests upon my shoulders.

(Shake that! Dun dun dun dun dun dun dun!)

And I got them mooooooooooooves like Jagger.

I wannnnnna go oh oh all they way ay ay!

Ooh ooh ooh!

it's five o clock in the morning (not really its the afternoon)

I'm freaking out man. I think that I messed it up.

Had a dream I was a king,,,,,,'

<3 Hey hey hey bye(:

So, the retreat begins.

2012-01-12T06:52:00.000-08:00

Ever get the feeling you might have fucked something up? Yeah. Well, the emotional retreat begins today! :D I'll go back to how I used to be, and It might not be ideal, but oh well. Today's gonna suck. Ugh. Thursdays.

Water..... and other things.

2012-01-11T21:42:00.000-08:00

I just felt like writing a sentence.

Mmmmmhmmm.

2012-01-10T21:28:00.000-08:00

When you finally reach that point of understanding on a painful subject, the relief is intense. You know it's going to hurt eventually, but you know you can make it through the pain. Because even in the most heart shattering pain, you can find hope. I know; I've done it. Yes, things will suck for a while, however, you will learn what you need to survive mentally & emotionally. Slowly, you realize you can breath again. Each breath is a sign that you're still fighting. Feel that beat underneath your shirt? That's your reason for living. That is the reason you're still here. To prove you can. You can get through it and be better. Live your life to the fullest, no matter what happens to you. It'll be worth eventually, even if it hurts now. But if anyone at all takes a minute to read this, then it shows they care about themselves. Or they just care about me and are my friend and decided to read this. Oh well. The choice is yours. Live or just barely skim life.

Fuck this ;)

2011-12-30T22:31:00.003-08:00

I hate politics.
In general, I don't like any politics. I disdain government and what it stands for. However, certain issues in politics make me more irate then usual. It started with what became known as "Obama Care" or health care. Since my family already had health care this did not really change much for us except for making more money issues. What "Obama Care" is, is a law that was enacted in the 2010 US health care reform bill that states every American must be covered by health care. One reason why this health care reform is bad is because of how it affects businesses. The owner will have to pay once he gets a certain amount of employees, and then he will have to pay for a family plan which gets expensive. Even if you don't own a business, even if you're just a healthy individual, then you will still have to pay for all your expensive health benefits. It's not easy. You'd have to have a job to cover the cost, and that job might have the benefits that you're looking for. In that case, your employer would be paying for your health insurance and that's still an expense. Either way someone is still paying. You might think the insurance companies get this money, but no. If you are an insurer, what you will pay depends on your share of net premiums plus 200% of your administrative costs. The government will extract an annual of about 6.7 billion dollars from insurance companies. This all goes back to the government. The government gets everything; everyone else gets the tiniest slice possible so that the government can keep them quiet. Plus, another reason why this health care reform was, and still is, a terrible idea is that for every dollar you make over $250, 000 your taxes go up by .05%. To someone who has a smaller salary this might not be a big deal, but to someone like my parents this is a very big deal. They make a lot more then the previous amount mentioned but most of their money is taken away in tax by the government. George Washington once said, "The alternate domination of one faction over another, sharpened by the spirit of revenge natural to party dissension, which in different ages & countries has perpetrated the most horrid enormities, is itself a frightful despotism. But this leads at length to a more formal and permanent despotism. The disorders & miseries, which result, gradually incline the minds of men to seek security & repose in the absolute power of an Individual: and sooner or later the chief of some prevailing faction more able or more fortunate than his competitors, turns this disposition to the purposes of his own elevation, on the ruins of Public Liberty." (September 19, 1796)George Washington's quote relates to political parties and began to resonate with Americans in 2008. With the election of Obama, many Americans did not realize the laws that he was about to pass, or that he would not make merry on promises he made. Maybe if Obama had not been elected our country would have turned out for the better, or maybe we would have gotten another egg-head in his place. It's safe to say that no one knows for sure what might have happened, yet that we can only say what we hope for our country in the future.

Follow me on Tumblr!

2011-12-30T13:58:00.000-08:00

:D
Made a Tumblr a few months ago, and am actually now posting on it.

http://cusipo.tumblr.com/

Speak Now.

2011-12-17T11:20:00.001-08:00

I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl

I sneak in and see your friends
And her snotty little family all dressed in pastel
And she is yelling at a bridesmaid
Somewhere back inside a room
Wearing a gown shaped like a pastry

This is surely not what you thought it would be
I lose myself in a daydream
Where I stand and say

[Chorus:]
Don’t say "Yes", run away now
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the back door
Don’t wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out
And they said, "Speak now"

Fond gestures are exchanged
And the organ starts to play
A song that sounds like a death march
And I am hiding in the curtains
It seems that I was uninvited by your lovely bride-to-be

She floats down the aisle like a pageant queen
But I know you wish it was me,
You wish it was me,
Don’t you?

[Chorus:]
Don’t say "Yes", run away now,
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the back door.
Don’t wait or say a single vow,
You need to hear me out,
And they said, "Speak now".
Don’t say "Yes", run away now,
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the back door.
Don’t wait or say a single vow,
Your time is running out,
And they said, "Speak now".

Oh, la, la
Oh, oh
Say a single vow

I hear the preacher say, "Speak now or forever hold your peace"
There’s the silence, there’s my last chance.
I stand up with shaky hands, all eyes on me.
Horrified looks from everyone in the room
But I’m only looking at you.

I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in on a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl

[Chorus:]
So, don’t say "Yes", run away now,
I’ll meet you when you’re out of the church at the back door.
Don’t wait or say a single vow,
You need to hear me out,
And they said, "Speak now".
And you’ll say "Let’s run away now,
I’ll meet you when I’m out of my tux at the back door.
Baby, I didn’t say my vows,
So glad you were around
When they said, "Speak now".

Eff it

2011-12-10T20:38:00.000-08:00

I hate the word "love." With a passion. It either comes at the right time, or with the wrong person. Life should be like a romance novel, or an eighties movie. At least everything would work out in the end. Right?

Eh? Me Gusta?

2011-11-27T18:55:00.000-08:00

I am aware of every inch of my body. In other words, I am self-conscious. Everything I have ever done made me even more aware as my surroundings had amplified the feelings. In love matters, this makes me seem shy. I'm not. I just have never really liked my body. Ever. There are days when I feel amazing, I love myself, I love my body, and am filled with energy. Then, other times, I can barely stand to look at myself in the mirror. Vulnerability has never helped. I am confident and able bodied... however, I want to hide beneath my skin, not shine above it. In familial matters, my self-consciousness still makes my parents feel unloved. I can sense their emotions though. When they are disappointed in me, angered, or just being spiteful, I can feel it. It's a terrible feeling. Knowing that you aren't good enough, I mean. In my life, I have always gotten what my parents wanted for me. I have always followed life my their examples. My mom and dad don't believe in God? He (or she) must not exist. My mom doesn't want me to tell anyone about family matters? I hold it in until I break. I don't break easily though. I am strong... at least I am most of the time. I broke when my sister moved out and left me to deal with my parents alone. But, my two best-friends were there to help me. If not for them... I don't know what I'd have done. Honestly, when I break I hit bottom. Then again, I don't experience anything half way. It's usually all or nothing with me. If I want to block things I end up becoming totally numb. If I want to feel.... a rush of emotion floods over me. It makes me feel flush and excited. Usually.... lately... I have been in the feel category. Lately, I love to feel. My boyfriend, he makes me feel, whether I want to or not. He is also one of those two best-friends I mentioned earlier. In general, life is pretty bland without him, and my other best friend.

Slow song of the week: Every Time We Touch

2011-11-21T20:14:00.000-08:00

I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me
I still feel your touch in my dreams
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive

'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling
And every time we kiss, I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last
I need you by my side
Cause every time we touch, I feel the static
And every time we kiss, I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go
I want you in my life

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky
They wipe away tears that I cry
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all
You make me rise when I fall

'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling
And every time we kiss I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last
I need you by my side

'Cause every time we touch, I feel the static
And every time we kiss, I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go
I want you in my life

'Cause every time we touch, I get this feeling
And every time we kiss, I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last
I need you by my side

Random Psychotic Babblings

2011-11-14T19:02:00.000-08:00

Life will drive you crazy. You will make mistakes that cannot be changed, say things that you regret, and hurt those you love. If you ever find yourself wondering what life is all about, or what your purpose is here, just don't. All you need to know is that you have to have fun and love everyone you love with your whole heart. Because one day things might change, things will irrevocably change, and you're gonna have to ask yourself, "is this worth it?" If the answer is yes, then maybe (just maybe) one day whatever it is that changed will show you why it changed, or that there was a reason. If the answer is no, ask yourself what it is you can do to change it. When your lies and secrets fall, there is a truth behind it. When something in your life changes it causes a ripple effect.

I really need to write a book, because I have a lot to say.... Hmm... next topic...? I got to think......

Heartbreak:

The feeling will render you helpless. It will smash you to your knees, and capture any breath you have left. You will be so shocked that, at first, you will not cry. You will not weep or moan or anything. You will just sit and stare in shock. Heartbreak. It's not always from losing a loved one, being broken up with, or pain. It can be from the simplest of problems or feelings. Heartbreak. It will cause you to question everything you know. Heartbreak. It will often make you feel alone. Heart break breaks your heart. Duh.

Falling in Love:

Really a quite useless term used to describe feelings people have about an object or another person. There's a feeling in love that your choking sometimes. Simply because you can't force yourself to say the words or speak about them at all. Acknowledgement is key. Sometimes, in love, you'll write a blog for someone to read about because your a wimp and just have to let them know you love them. Ya know, but that's just one way of putting it. It's also pure happiness. Fuzzy, flutter feelings. Movie type stuff.

Puppies:

Are cute ^`^

and... that's all I can think of xD so Byee

RipleyShaine

Hmmm... I saw this on FunnyJunk and Fmylife

2011-11-09T16:52:00.001-08:00

One More Sad Song

2011-11-07T17:23:00.000-08:00

One boy, one girl
Two hearts, their world
Time goes by, secrets rise
One more sad song,
Tears shed, she's gone
She'd take it back, if she only could

And all the perfect words they seem so wrong,
She's gone
You wish that you could learn to see,
The door is closed, and you wish you could be

Alone with you, alone with me
What can I do? I cannot breathe
My heart is torn for all to see
Alone with you, alone with me

Best friend, worst thing
She's been cheating
Friend deceives, she leaves
Last date, she cries
Whispers goodbye
She walks once more out that door

And all the perfect words they seem so wrong,
She's gone
You wish that you could learn to see,
The door is closed, and you wish you could be

Alone with you, alone with me
What can I do? I cannot breathe
My heart is torn for all to see
Alone with you, alone with me

(Please, please, please, please)

Please stay, don't go away
The hardest thing is letting go of you
Please stay, don't go away
The hardest thing is letting go of you
What can I do?

Alone with you
Alone with me
What can I do?
I cannot breathe..
Alone with, alone with...

Alone with you, alone with me
What can I do?
I cannot breathe
My heart is torn for all to see
Alone with you, alone with me..

<33

Oh, it is love.

2011-11-06T18:03:00.000-08:00

Oh,it is love from the first time I set my eyes upon yours thinking "Oh, is it love?"

Oh,dear
It's been hardly a moment
And you are already missed
There is still a bit of your skin
That I've yet to have kissed
Oh say, please do not go
When you know, oh you know that I must
Oh say, I love you so
You know (oh) you, (oh) know you can trust
We'll be holding hands once again
All our broken plans I will mend
I will hold you tight so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my hand to yours
Thinking, "Oh, is it love?"

Oh,dear,
its been hardly three days yet
And I'm longing to feel your embrace
There are several days
Until I can see your sweet face

Oh say, wouldn't you like to be older and married with me?
Oh say, wouldn't it be nice to know right now that we'll be
Someday holding hands in the end
All our broken plans will have been
I will kiss you soft so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking, "Oh, is it love?"

Oh, your heart may long for love that is more near
So, when I'm gone these words will be here
To ease every fear
And dry up every tear
And make it very clear
I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I press my lips against yours
Thinking, "Oh, is it love?"

Oh it is love from the first
Time I set my lips against yours
Thinking, "Oh, is it love?"

I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I set my lips against yours
Thinking, "Oh, is it love?"

{I love that song}

Homework!

2011-11-02T15:17:00.000-07:00

Snacks + homework = brain explosion.

I has math (Page 169, 123 and 3-39 M3)

English (Crossword & page of questions)

Bye(:

My Favorite Quotes!

2011-10-27T10:35:00.000-07:00

"Falling in Love is So hard On the Knees" - Aerosmith

"Am i Not destroying My enemies By making Them my Friends?" - Abraham Lincoln

"Be proud Of every Scar on Your heart. Each one Holds a Lifetime's worth Of lessons."- Wallace Stegner

"When you Are content To be Simply yourself And don't Compare or Compete, everybody will respect you"- Lao Tzu

"Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscalgia

"beauty often seduces us on the road to truth"- David Shore

"Where words fail, music speaks"- Hans Christian Andersen

"plenty of things are mistakes, but mistakes are like seeds, and they grow into purposes"- James Hannaham

“Next time your girl wants you to take her somewhere expensive, take her to the gas station… almost 5.00/gallon.”- Unknown

I am a terrible person.

2011-10-20T17:05:00.001-07:00

No matter how badly things get, I can't take out my problems out on other people. I am a terrible best friend.

My best friend is kind of a big bitch :3

2011-10-18T20:29:00.001-07:00

When my best friend calls me a big bitch every five minutes for having EMOTIONS I kind of want to slap her in the face. Yes, I get jealous of people. Occasionally. But I got over it. I wasn't being mean to anyone... :3 But no. She has to hit me. Call me a bitch. Never tell me I am good enough when we work together on school projects. No wonder I feel inferior to other girls.

It doesn't help that she points out the good about everyone else and tells me whats wrong with me. I kinda want to stop giving a fuck. Tomorrow will be my "No fuck is Given" day.

I smh. -_____- I love her. But.... meh.

World Turns- Secondhand Serenade

2011-10-16T09:26:00.000-07:00

Turn slowly,
each day's so fast,
and I don't have the strength.
all I see,
is broken glass,
with shiny shards of pain.

and change is coming my Way,
but I still feel the same,
I still feel the same.(X2)

Hold structure,
don't let life pass,
let yourself be free.
Cause your much more,
forget the past,
I'm your enemy.

and change is coming my way,
but I still feel the same,
I still feel the same(X2)

It's quiet,
It's calm now,
I'm waiting,
to fall down.

you showed me,
that I need hope,
and I need change,
to know how it feels to be alone..
http://www.elyricsworld.com/world_turns_lyrics_secondhand_serenade.html
how does it feel to be alone?

And change is coming my way,
but I still feel the same,
I still feel the same(X6)

It's quiet,
it's calm now,
I'm waiting,
to fall down.

You showed me,
That I need hope,
that I need change
I still feel the same...

Curse Words will FLY.

2011-10-15T19:00:00.000-07:00

Well, Fuck Your Shit Bitch. What the fuck is wrong with people that they can't accept another fucking persons fucking opinion because they think it's "stupid" "unworthy" or "selfish". To dumbass bitches like that : FUCK YOUR SHIT. You have no Idea what is going on with me. I will say what ever the frick I want. Freedom of speech, soith. You don't like it suck my non existent nom.

Lots a cursey.. in some other languages to... MESU INU.

My philosophy on life.

2011-10-14T06:52:00.000-07:00

It's too short for me to hide in a corner and bitch and moan so I should be happy as much as possible, right? I can cry as much as I want about BS before I go to sleep, but In the morning it's all irrelevant.

Life is about making choices and mine is this: I choose to live a happy life and create happiness for others. It's simple, but it is my goal.

Suddenly- Superchick

2011-10-11T06:15:00.000-07:00

She feels lost in her own life
Treading water just to keep from slipping under
And she wonders if she's where she's supposed to be
Tired of trying to do it right
Her dreams are just too far away to see how steps she's making might be taking her to who she'll be

And suddenly it isn't what it used to be
And after all this time it worked out just fine
And suddenly I am where I'm supposed to be
And after all the tears, I was supposed to be here

She feels locked in her own life
Scared of what she might lose
If she moves away from who she was
And she's afraid of being free
There's a way she knows is right
And she can't feel the things she knows and so each step she's taking
Is a step of faith towards who she'll be

And suddenly it isn't what it used to be
And after all this time it worked out just fine
And suddenly I am where I'm supposed to be
And after all the tears, I was supposed to be here

And here where the night is darkest black
She feels the fear
And the light is farthest back
And through her tears
She can see the dawn
It's coming skies will clear
And the light will find her where she's always been

And suddenly it isn't what it used to be
And after all this time it worked out just fine
And suddenly I am where I'm supposed to be
And after all the tears, I was supposed to be here

Dear Agony, Just let go of me!

2011-10-02T18:23:00.000-07:00

I'm listening to Dear Agony by Breaking Benjamin. It's pretty(: I will do my laundry and then watch Robin of Sherwood (*cough* David *cough*)

Anyways, really awesome day! If only I weren't so damn shy >.< I am afraid I am actually very good at psychical things like kissing and stuff; I just get too embarrassed to do anything. Dammit. D: I'm screwed!!!

RipleyShaine!

What is the meaning of life? To be happy and useful.

2011-09-22T19:28:00.000-07:00

The universe makes me feel inferior. It seems like it never fails to remind me that I am human, and therefore, I am breakable. I am delicate, I am fragile. Yes, I am many things, but I cannot be truly happy. Anytime my happiness goes on for too long the world seems to need to balance it out with news determined to shatter what is left of my heart. A heart that has only barely been repaired. Duct tape doesn't fix everything after all it seems. It can't fix my mothers health, or the fact that she has a fifty percent chance of having Lymphoma. It does not fix the unspoken and unwept pain in my eyes; my heart. No. Duct tape does not fix everything. That would be unimaginable. So, in spite of my pain, I have a list.

What Duct Tape Should Fix:

Broken Hearts
Cancer
Guitars
Me

Yeah, kind of a crappy list, but c'mon, I am fourteen and not thinking straight, so what do you expect?
Anyways: Is it wrong to pray to a God you do not believe in? I pray to God, or whatever (whoever) the hell is out there that my mom does not have cancer... I guess we won't know until the tests get back. I just can't believe something like could happen to my mom. She is my mommy for fucks sake! Woops.... cursing >.< I promised myself I'd stop that.

But even at the end of the day, I have three people: Chelsey, David, and Kyla. They make everything seem brighter; they are a reason to always be happy. For them I can do that. Right? And I know one of them reads my posts. So, David, Thank you. I love you.

Anywho, back to duct tape. I'd rather call it Duck Tape. It makes me wanna giggle. I guess I will make this the end of my post, since I am being random, and not really saying anything.

Good Evening, and have a nice life,

Ripley Shaine.

A poet is someone who stands outside in the rain hoping to be struck by lightning.

2011-09-05T11:32:00.000-07:00

I want it to rain so frickin' badly right now. I love the rain. It is so beautiful and peaceful. Also, relaxing. But sadly, it is only drizzling ): Ah, PLEASE MAKE IT RAIN WEATHER GODS!

Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.

2011-08-17T21:49:00.001-07:00

So, i think i'll make a youtube video. hehehe >:D

I rant, therefore I am.

2011-07-03T17:59:00.000-07:00

Humans, as a whole, are incorrigible beings. We lie, cheat, steal, hurt, murder, etc. But that is because we lack the necessary tools to continue as a well-manifested society.

Think about it: What is the one gift we all need and never are allowed or granted to have? Acceptance.

We want to be seen as we really are- physically flawed, personalities quirked, and even our insecurities.We want one person to be okay with every inch of who we are. Always we are afraid that we are too needy or too high maintenance. We put limitations on ourselves and our relationships because we are afraid that we're not really loved. That we are not really accepted. We hide the smallest pieces of ourselves away because we are afraid that it might be the one thing to drive away the person who is supposed to love us.

Even the most hated of people craves acceptance; even the most loved. Regardless of who you are, acceptance is always your goal; whether you have realized it or not.

You will just continue to push people away, and to what end? Your life will eventually ruin and you will always be unhappy. So, Just love already.

My Blog Kind of Fails. Then again, So Do I.

2011-06-25T22:47:00.001-07:00

My life is pretty much perfect. Aside from family issues, and personal issues, I've been pretty happy. (: Haha. My blogs beginning to suck worse for it.

"The last refuge of the insomniac is a sense of superiority to the sleeping world. "

2011-06-21T02:47:00.000-07:00

Insomnia. I thought I abandoned that shit last Summer <.< But when your mind is racing, you really cannot go to sleep now can you? There's just a dump-tuck full of shit in my mind. I have no one to talk to about it either. Fuck my life.

Ripley

This whole Post will be in French... For I am bored.

2011-06-17T13:35:00.000-07:00

Bonjour mes amours. Aujourd'hui, je vais au blog de rien en particulier, et si vous vous souciez que vous allez utiliser Google pour le traduire. Here we go: Comme nous parler, je suis à l'écoute de la musique sur youtube. Il me fait me sentir assez calme et en face de l'extérieur de météo. Il est 89 degrés dehors! Pas aussi chaud comme il l'a été la semaine dernière, mais toujours très chaud à Las Vegas. Vous savez l'appareil rouge salopette eu la bonne idée. «Quand je vois votre sourire, larmes coulent sur mon visage. Je ne peux pas remplacer" Il me fait me sentir aimé! J'adore cette chanson hyper bien. Je l'ai dédié à ma meilleure-guy-ami, et bien, maintenant il est mon ami. Si vous pouvez l'appeler <. <Il sorte de plus impressionnant que ça. Je ne peux pas le décrire! Mais de toute façon, euh .... ce qui était, je parles à propos? <3

L'amour de ma vie,

Ripley.

NOM NOM NOM >:D

2011-06-17T13:17:00.001-07:00

I has the best lollipop in th world; Just felt like sharing that with you <3

Bye.

"I'm not psycho... I just like psychotic things." - Gerard Way

2011-06-14T13:04:00.000-07:00

You know how something happens, and it makes you happy? But then you start to doubt its reasoning? Yeah, well, I am kind of getting that feeling now. Things happen and I believe in them and It's awesome and life works out, then My mind makes me believe it couldn't possibly be good for me. Is that messed up?

As POM said
"Maybe I'm the one, maybe I'm the one, who Is the schizophrenic psycho, yeah."

Bye.

Me.

I am such A Dumbass.

2011-06-05T17:14:00.000-07:00

If there's one thing I hate, It is a liar. One thing I hate more: Boys who cheat on their girlfriends. FUCK YOU.

Happiness is a form of courage. ~Holbrook Jackson

2011-05-07T09:11:00.001-07:00

Today is a very good day(: My school's Choir&Orchestra (Advanced groupings) Are taking a trip for the Music in the Parks festival today! I cannot wait; only three more hours to go. SO, while I wait I guess I should play Resident Evil. I am not getting dressed til ten- thirty. So, Yeah(;

Bye.

Ripley

I never want to fake it. That's my whole thing.

2011-04-24T20:54:00.000-07:00

Hello! :D

SO, If you're (or anyone, really) reading this,
I have gotten my life in order. I thought it might be difficult, but it was really very quite simple.
All I had to do was: Make myself happy!

Amazing, right?

Love y'all!

Ripley<3

“I love you, and because I love you, I would sooner have you hate me for telling you the truth than adore me for telling you lies.”

2011-04-20T22:53:00.000-07:00

Pietro Aretino was correct....... the truth is far better than secret and I know that:

But what if the truth lay in dishonesty? It Is never so complicated though.

If you were to throw me away, it would mean I meant nothing to you, correct? Thus revealing your true nature. But if you were to keep me in your life, it would hurt me so much more, because it would show myself that forgiveness is in your heart to stay.

Eh, Random babblings..... I should sleep now!

Love Me or Love Me Not,

Ripley Shaine Boyette.

Instead of making me happy, it's just messing up my life. So fuck love I don't need it in my life.

2011-04-18T21:54:00.000-07:00

For many years you had me on my knees and my heart on the floor so fuck love because it doesn't exist anymore.

I just don't know...... I am so confused..... I have no idea what I want. At my age, Do I need love? Do I know what love is? I don't want to hurt him, yet at the same time it is inevitable. This life ocnfuses me, and hurts my heart.

Music shall heal me </3 I will know what I want. NO MORE CONFUSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love,

Ripley Shaine.

“Sure, the lion is king of the jungle but airdrop him into Antarctica, & he's just a penguin's bitch”

2011-04-03T20:45:00.000-07:00

Heyy(:

been a while since I posted a blog..... But it is mainly because of my book. See, when I got my new computer I forgot to transfer my files, and my book was lost. Not that I care. It kind of sucked. So now I can restart. Problem is I have writers block. Kind of like a cock block only worse >:D

Now I have all these plots stuck in my brain and I am quite sure none of them fit my angle.

GAHHHH!
Must Get back to workk >:DDDDD N'yahh!

Bye Bye,

Ripley

"For there is nothing either good or bad, thinking makes it so." - William Shakespeare- Hamlet, II.ii

2011-03-27T20:34:00.000-07:00

Ahhhhh, thoughts. Ya, know life would not be so bad if we did not have to think everything through. Choices, decisions, mistakes. It is all pretty useless! I have been have a revelation lately.

I am awesome; all of y'all( whom may think otherwise )can suck it . That's the basis of it. SO, my blogs are short... maybe if somethin' interesting happens I will have a longer passage but for now....
EH, Well, screw it.
Bye.

Life is too short to hold a grudge, also too long

2011-03-22T15:05:00.000-07:00

The quote ( my title) is by Robert Brault. I think it is very controversial, huh? Life is too short yet also too long to hold a grudge. Either way you lose..... But I think I can win any grudge I settle. I have enough. I do, however, wish I had someone I could talk to freely. Some person that would not judge me; I just want to talk about everything going on lately. Even my closest friends have an opinion. I just want someone to listen. Not give advice; listen. Not going to happen; not in today's society. Everyone needs gossip, to know, to have, to pass along what is not theirs.

Finally, Food for thought:

I surprised at the illogical thought processes of people in my school; I broke up with him. Fuck what he says, or what you say he says. I'm through. If I broke up with him, is there not a reason why? Think about it.

School; to go or not to go?

2011-03-22T06:32:00.000-07:00

I have a happy playlist so it really wont matter much! My friend Alexa gave me the idea(: It's isnpiring or really edgy rock/pop chick music that makes girls feel empowered! C'mon school!

At least today is over with.

2011-03-21T21:09:00.000-07:00

Ah, another fine day to look forward to tomorrow. <.<

Why does life suck so much? Who knows, who truly cares? I'm going to sleep. Goodnight, may your dreams bring a better time then the restless-ness of the world.

look for the girl with the broken smile , ask her if she wants to stay a while

2011-03-21T19:36:00.000-07:00

Music Is my life; always. Its even how I chose the title of my blog. The Song She will be loved by Maroon 5 is one of my addictions. And I have so many. To try to describe them, even with my extensive vocabulary (which I am not using), would be like describing the taste of water: irrefutable yet a total waste of time because >irrefutable< only works when you can work its description to a minute detail. So, it is a complete waste of time. If you even tried to argue over such a thing you would most likely be accused of uncouth behavior and labeled as someone who should have no time wasted over. Ha-ha, following so far? Good, because I have nothing else to do!

I dont know what to discuss now..... So I think I will go waste an hour on facebook. Au Revoir, L'amour!

The Depressing Titles You Shall Soon Read

2011-03-21T19:21:00.000-07:00

NO BODY WANTS TO READ ABOUT A HAPPY LIFE.
It's common sense. Everyone wants to read interesting things, and well, your happy vacation to Mexico with your new hubby is not it. A normal depressed teen life is not, either. Mine, however, is not normal. I have to deal with a mind like E.A. Poe, reoccurring migraines (which would score a 10 on the Richter scale), spouts of depression, anorexia, etc. But It is so interesting to read. Plus my mind comes up with some interesting shit. It all started with a broke up with my boyfriend, four days before our eleven-month of dating. I didn't cry, until second period of school the next day; the only class we share together. Coincidence? I seriously doubt it. I am really over emotional, and two hours ago I had not eaten in three days. I just wrote down a lot of my thoughts into twisting plots of death. Cool, huh?